#not even my mom and aunt should be forced to spend timw with me

[goatmeatstew]

So today's my mom's birthday and my mom, aunt, and I were stuck up at the social security office trying to get something done. They started planning on doing something fun and the way they were talking, I thought I would be included. Hell, my aunt even said it'd just be the three of us. So I thought we were all going to go out and have fun. Well, when we got home, I headed to my room to charge my phone cause it had died earlier and while my phone was charging my aunt and mom changed their plans and left without me. And I know I shouldn't be upset. They just want to have a fun night without me being a downer. And I understand that I always make people feel uncomfortable and I always ruin the fun and that's why I barley had any friends growing up, but to be ditched by my own mom? I shouldn't be crying right now, but I am, because I'm an idiot who thought I would be included tonight. Of course they ditched me, I always ruin everything. Of course they wanted to have a fun night without me. Up at the social security office, that was probably them just trying not to upset me, trying to make me feel included, like I wasn't just that weirdo that, at best, they tolerated. I understand and I shouldn't be crying right now. But I am, and I know it's stupid.